Believe in your heart

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It's hard to forgive but harder to forget

Why is it harder to forgive the people that you love? Is it because - expected more from him? Trusted him? Or maybe it's the fact that someone you love betrayed you and that means that for some amount of time they stopped caring about you, even if it was only for a moment.

My little SiSteR birthday

Happy my chentahati my beloved mom & my little sister is here :

Happy Birthday Adik!!

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CRV 2 yrs today!!

Hopefully 21 is my lucky number and my lucky day!! To start my new life!!
Happy Birthday to My black baby CRV | is 2 today 21 April 2010 - 21 April 2012

My birthday 21st September

Did you know that every different colour of rose has a distinct meaning? Yup... so you'd better know what message you are sendingbefore you send it!
Here's a breakdown of each colour and its meaning... 

RED: I love you

PINK: Grace and elegance, happiness, and also an expression of admiration

YELLOW: Friendship

WHITE: Purity and innocence

ORANGE: Desire and enthusiam or secret love

LAVENDER: Enchantment or love at first sight

PEACH: Sympathy or gratitude or modesty and sincerity

BLACK: Death

CHAMPAGNE: Lasting beauty

Even the way roses are arranged can convay something to the recipient. For instance...
Two roses joined together with a ribbon represents engagement. Red and white roses arranged toghether means unity.

And guess what? Even the number of roses you give to someone also has meaning. Take a look...

1 rose: Love at first sight
2 roses: Deeply in love
3 roses: I love you
6 roses: I want to be yours
9 roses: Eternal love
10 roses: You are perfect
11 roses: You are treasured, the one I love the most
12 roses: Be my steady
13 roses: Secret admirer
15 roses: I am sorry, please forgive me (hubby gave me on our Anniversary)!!
20 roses: Please believe me
21 roses: I am devoted to you
24 roses: I am always thinking of you
33 roses: I love you with great affection
36 roses: I will remember our romantic moments
40 roses: My love is genuie
50 roses: Regretless love
99 roses: I will love you for as long as I live
100 roses: Always together until we grow old
101 roses: You are my one and only love
365 roses: I think of you everyday
999 roses: Everlasting eternal love (now that can be expensive!).
I bet you never thought the colour and the number of roses you send could mean so much? Well... now you know!

R.A.P.U.H

by Opick

Detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan

Seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata..

Ku persembahkan kepada-Mu
yang terindah dalam hidupku

Meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepada-Mu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah pada-Mu..

Maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintai-Mu
dalam dada ku harap hanya
diri-Mu yang bertakhta

Detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir pada-Mu

Ya Allah.. Berikanlah hambamu ini kekuatan menempuhi dugaan demi dugaan dan ujian dariMu Ya Allah.. Sesungguhnya hambaMu yang lemah ini amat memerlukan pertolonganMu di setiap waktu dan di setiap sujudku. Ya Allah.. Ku memohon kurangkan lah beban ini.. ringanlah beban ini. Semoga dengan kekuatan yang datang dariMu.. tiada apapun yang dapat melemahkanku. Tiada kekuatan yang dapat mengalahkan kekuatan yang Engkau berikan padaku.

Ku pohonkan doaku Ya Allah.. Berikanlah HidayahMu. Berikanlah kesabaran dan kekuatan iman. Itu lah doaku setiap hari. Tunjukkan aku jalan yang benar. Luaskan fikiranku. Lapangkanlah hatiku. Ampunilah dosaku Ya Allah.. hanya Kau yang satu tempatku mengadu.. tiada daya serta upaya.. Ku pohonkan doaku Ya Allah..

Amin…Ya Rabbal Alamin

For The Rest Of My Life

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You’ve found your home it’s here with me, and I’m here with you
Now let me let you know
You’ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along, oh
And there’s a couple of words I want to say

For the rest of my life, I’ll be with you
I’ll stay by your side, honest and true
Till the end of my time, I’ll be loving you, loving you

For the rest of my life, through days and nights
I’ll thank Allah for opening my eyes
Now and forever I, I’ll be there for you
I know it deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do

You’re my wife, and my friend and my strength
And I pray we’re together in Jannah

Finally now I’ve found my self, I feel so strong
Yes everything was changed when you came along, oh
And there’s a couple of words I want to say

For the rest of my life, I’ll be with you

I’ll stay by your side, honest and true

Till the end of my time, I’ll be loving you, loving you
For the rest of my life, through days and nights
I’ll thank Allah for opening my eyes
Now and forever I, I’ll be there for you
I know it deep in my heart
And now that you’re here, in front of me
I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt, and I’ll sing it loud
And that I will love you eternally

For the rest of my life, I’ll be with you

I’ll stay by your side, honest and true

Till the end of my time, I’ll be loving you, loving you
For the rest of my life, through days and nights
I’ll thank Allah for opening my eyes
Now and forever I, I’ll be there for you
I know it deep in my heart

[ One of our favorite love songs before.. It is this song really meaningful for you? OR .....  ]

Sepanjang Hidup (For The Rest Of My Life)

I may not be the best,

but I'm definitely not like the rest!

"It's sweet when someone knows every single detail about you. Not because you constantly remind them, but because they pay attention."

Never regret something that made you smile.. because at the time, it was exactly everything you wanted.

My attitude is based on how YOU treat me..

Cinta Bersatu

by LY
 

Di matamu ku berharga
Kau perlakukan aku
Lebih dari mencintai dirimu

Di dekatmu ku merasa
Bahagianya aku
Dapat ruang cintamu

Hanya kamu saja
Yang mampu begitu
Tulus
Mengerti aku

Kau sempurna bagiku
Tak kurang sesuatu
Kau terima apa adaku

Ku sempurna bagimu
Tak kurang sesuatu
Cinta bersatu

Gayamu
Sifatmu
Cara mencintaiku
Yang membuatku diriku jatuh cinta padamu

I love this song... but this song 'Cinta Bersatu' makes me cry everytime!  I can't entirely explain why this song makes me cry. I just started crying and couldn't stop until the song was over. It makes me so sad...really really sad...

because ..

I think this song suitable for us .. This song is so beautiful.. I can't stop listening to it. That time I believe this song is about true love, a love shared between us, a love you find once in a life time.. and the love was real and honest and pure.. Always thinking about us. Our love.. Now, tell me my dear darling hubby,  how can I not love you this much, when every time you look at me, all I feel is how deep is your love for me. I`ve fallen deeply in love with you.. Always think that..

But ..

You know the answer .. why this song make make cry.. cry.. cry.. and cry.. Sayang.. I don't know how to express my feelings right now! Its Really hard-

I Hate MySelf

All of this happend.. I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get though anything, but inside .. What do you want me to say? The truth is NO. I'm not okey and then what? So just smile and say I'm fine .. even tho I'm really dying inside.. Sometimes I just feel like running away.. I'm going to smile and make you think i'm happy. I don't know what to do anymore, nothing feels the same.

I've always tried to be nice to everyone. Ive tried to help everyone.. Never did anything bad!! Never hurt anyone. I think!! SURELY. Just wanna see everyone happy. Even if it means i'll be sad. WHY???? WHY???? Dear darling, what wrong with our love? Then how all of this can happen?

I don't miss you | I miss the person I thought you were.

 I HATE MYSELF

I love and hate my life all at the same time. *Crying* I just hate feeling like this.

Do what makes you happy

Money can't buy happiness

Starting over again

There are those moment of life that i'll always remember and can we start over again?

 But how to start over again? Start from Where? When? Which date?

O.N.E 

(reset life. I want to restart my life)

T.W.O

(I'll always remember... I'll never forget, how you took my breath away, the first time we met. No matter what happens... no matter what we do, I'll ALWAYS remember the first time.. )

T.H.R.E.E

(Beautiful flowers make me smile)

F.O.U.R

(Falling in love is easy. Staying in love is challenge)

F.I.V.E

(Money and love aren't the same thing.The more you spend money, the less you have,

the more you spend love, the more you get in return)

S.I.X

(    )

 

S.E.V.E.N

(Yesterday is history, Today is a gift, and Tomorrow is a mystery.

Live each day as though it were your last, with the things that are truly going to last)

E.I.G.H.T

(New LOVE song)

N.I.N.E

(Telling the truth is the right way to act. Living with lies is harder than living a truthful life. 

Being truthful and honest is important)

 

T.E.N

(I need many things to help me live, but I need only you, to make life worth living)

Pray for happiness, hope for dreams, and hold on to love.

Yes, sometimes the hardest part isn't letting go but rather learning to start over.

 + A person doesn't have to be perfect to be exactly what you need..+

I.M.I.S.S.Y.O.U

 

Dear darling Husband, I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the ONE, I want to share it with.. I miss you when something is troubling me because I think you are the one who understands me so well. I really miss you when I laugh & cry because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappears.. I miss that Abang!! I miss you all the time. I miss and try to thing of all the wonderful times we spent with each other .. for those are some of the best times of my life!

I hate myself because I hate getting flashbacks from things I don't want to REMEMBER. I feel very depressed. I hate reliving all of this. I just need it to stop. I just feel tired and overwhelmed most of the time. I cut to just take the pain away, but even that can't stop the flashbacks. I've always hated myself now.. I've done great things to improve my life, it's never enough for me and seems like nothing makes me happy. 

I need you.. I miss you soooooooo muchhhHHHHH ...

You are my husband,  the love of my life. I love you so much. And I miss our life together!! You are my soul mate, my best friend, my inspiration, and my love. You mean so much to me ..

Abang, my life is incomplete without you and I can't imagine my life without you. You are my hope, you are my joy, and you are my strength. I ♥ You..

Truth Hurts

"Telling the TRUTH and making someone cry is better than telling a LIE and making someone smile"

Sayang, I really hope that I can always make you happy from now on until the day I died. My whole life is now focussed on you as I luv u very much and I hate it when you are not happy. I have been stupid in the past and for that I am truly sorry.. See u at 6pm ye.. (Hubby SMS April 5,2012 at 2.23pm)

It's hard to smile..

The weather represents my mood, rains!

Raining inside my heart!

 

 

Love has glowing effects!!

"Don't say that you LOVE me unless you really mean it,

BECAUSE

I might do something crazy like believe it"

Sad & Depressed

Never say I Love You if you don't really care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there. Never hold my hand if your going to break my heart!!

Heart

Love is hard. Very hard. Everyday I have to hope for the best NOW. I want you to love me for who i am.. I gave you all my heart. (Wife SMS March 29,2012 at 4.45pm)